My heart was shattered into a million pieces tonight but through it all, I realize how much I have to learn about myself, how much I have to learn about God, and how much I've been missing in my life for so long. It's so easy to pretend everything is ok and fake a smile for the world when really, your life doesn't have much to smile about at the moment.

It's time for a brand new start and a brand new me. I want to discover who I am outside of other people and who I am in God's eyes. My life is so off track and I want it back. I can only hope I remember this the next time the phone rings and that familiar number pops up on my caller ID.

God give me strength because I'm going to need it...

P.S.-I just thought of this song and I think it fits me perfectly right about now.

Welcome Home You
--Brian Littrell

when i left home to be who i am
some people said "no way"
but i laid it all down, gave everything
in my head rang the words that my father said

you're never far
i will be where you are
and when you come to me
i will open my arms

welcome home, you
i know you by name
how do you do?
i shine because of you today
so come and sit down
tell me how you are
i know son, it's good just to see your face.

when i look at you holding my heart
i will give to you all that i have
son i know there'll be times
you will feel all alone
i will share with you the words my father said

you're never far
i will be where you are
and when you come to me
you can bet i will open my arms

welcome home, you
i know you by name
how do you do?
i shine because of you today
so come and sit down
tell me how you are
i know son, it's good just to see your face

said i've been waiting for that day
just to feel your warm embrace
your love has shown
i will never be alone
you will welcome me home

i'll forever be
you will say to me
welcome home, you
i know you by name
how do you do?
i shine because of you today
so come and sit down
tell me how you are
i know son, it's good just to see your face

when i left home to be who i am
some people said "no way"

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Dierks Bentley-Modern Day Drifter

Well, this is my first entry. I'm only on here because one of my friends told me about a community message board that I could post on about the issues I'm having and I thought someone might be able to put my mind at ease.

I've been on my period for two full weeks now, heavy for the whole two weeks. I'm starting to get concerned that something is wrong because this has never happened before. I usually go a week and then I'm done. I'm not sexually active, nor have I been ever, but my periods are also not regular. I can go two months without having one and then have them for two months in a row. This is the first time I've gone for more than a week and it's starting to worry me.

I have an appointment with my family doctor on Tuesday and then I'm hoping she can refer me to a gyno in our family practice. But until then, has anyone else gone through this? Help please!

Current Mood: worried